Happy Birthday Mom!

First of all I would like to thank all the friends and family out there for the many birthday wishes today, such a blessing to have so many awesome people in our life! Molly has been very sick all weekend. St. Louis made it very clear to us that they do not want her on any more steroids.  When she would get sick like this in the past we would run her to the Dr. or the ER if it was the middle of the night, they would give her steroids and fluids and she would come right around..................now.................we don't! We stay home with her and in between all the breathing treatments and inhaler moments we hope and pray that she maintains a tolerable oxygen level! She has an inhaler that she has now requested so I know that it makes her feel better! She gets three short bursts of the inhaler sometimes every hour and during that time she sings her ABC's...........so yes, my 22 month old knows her ABC's by heart! For the last week she hasn't slept but maybe 1 or 2 hours at night at a time. She can't stand to lay on her back when she is struggling to breathe...........who can? We don't even fight it, we get up w/ her amidst the coughing fit and pop a bag of popcorn in the micro, put Disney Clubhouse on the DVR and we sing, dance, eat popcorn and veg! She also makes us read books while the show is on, concentration at 2am w/ the hot dog song in the background is difficult at times! Some feel sorry for us and some want to help but really now that we know what we have to do we are managing quite well. Molly hates it, she stomps her feet when the asthma attack (coughing incessantly) starts and the whole time during. How do you coach an almost 2 year old to role with it............to embrace it................to calm down? I still freak so its probably some of momma's anxiety coming out as well! She coughs so hard at times she pukes which completely freaks me out! Ok so why the blog on my birthday? I went to get Molly out of her own bed this morning and I told her I was so proud of her for sleeping all night in her bed..............and she looked at me and said with her paci in her mouth.............."Happy Birthday Momma, I love you."  May seem pretty minor but this was the world to me. All 3 of our kids are a blessing but it wasn't until Molly that I was aware the magnitude of the blessing! Everything happens for a reason! The best birthday gift of all...............a full night sleep which is definitely indicative that she is feeling better! YAY!