Molly-maintenance!

Hello All:
Hope this "blog" finds you well!  It's been a very rough week in the Moran house so I thought I would blog about it.  For some reason I feel like the fog that shadows daily living is back.  I find myself pre-occupied w/ thoughts of Molly and now my dad. For those of you not aware, my dad is suffering in the late stages of emphysema.  He has struggled since 2004 and this last hospital stay was a very rough time for him.  Mom and Deb and I have decided hospice care would be best for dad and all involved.  The Dr. wanted to make sure that he would never be alone and recommended a nursing home, we couldn't make that jump.  Here lies a dad that would walk through hells fire for anyone, not just family, anyone..........he should get to be at home! He should get to spend his time surrounded by friends and family and so it is!

Dad went to ER on Friday and Molly followed close behind on Saturday morning at 4am!  I swear those 2 have sympathy lungs! When 1 goes down they both struggle!  Dad hadn't been in the hospital since March, 2010..........when Molly was born!  Now he returns and Molly follows suit!  My mom has always said that Molly is his favorite because she has a special connection and loves to sit on his lap and jabber with him all day long!  Perhaps the nasal canula's don't intimidate her like they do most kids..................she knows what those are about!  Who knows but it's a real connection and I'm not sure what binds them but its true and real!  Molly has had trouble keeping her oxygen numbers up lately!  She was real low when we got to ER and she still seemed to struggle yet yesterday!  I took her to Cardinal Glennon yesterday to get their insight and Dr. Sadiq was lost as to her struggles.  He couldn't imagine that she would have asthma as bad as she does.  He couldn't believe her "radiant beauty" as he kept saying!  He said that she is the most beautiful baby that he has ever seen and just melts his heart! Too precious...........bet he says that to all the girls! LOL  I hate going to Cardinal Glennon, its just not my happy place but it's always a very good life lesson!  I go in there w/ the "I can't beleive we have to keep coming here Molly" attitude and I leave there feeling so blessed and lucky!  You can't imagine what you see throughout the course of the day inside that facility, some very sad little kids! So if for no other reason but to remind me that my child is AWESOME and we have life by the tail if we would just realize it, then lesson learned!!! She will struggle w/ a pretty severe case of asthma, that's the diagnosis! No, we don't know if its from her stint in NICU or if she would've been born w/ it regardless, nor do I care!  That's the nature of the game.............If I didn't want stretch marks I wouldn't of had kids, if she didn't have chest tubes........she wouldn't be here!  That's the fruits of war! 

Molly is a completely different child then most, her attitude is strong and sweet, her behavior is obediant but ornery and she is very very strong but an amazing gentleness consumes her!  She will beat her big sister up but kiss her at night w/ the greatest of ease........she knows no stranger, no enemy and no mountain too big...................sounds like my dad really! Weird how our Great God will take one but replace one w/ just the same!  Please keep my family in your prayers, my mom is strong but has been hit with a lot lately in regards to dad.  Thank you and have an awesome Christmas...............hug those babies!